Sunday morning at Monkeygrind Espresso. And an amazing thing happened: when I went up to the counter, the girl knew my drink order! I'm officially a regular!

Nearly two weeks since my last post, and all the things I said I needed to do haven't gotten done yet. Well, not all, but most. I did polish off my revision of "In These Things Do I Delight" and sent it to my writing group. But I haven't done anything with "Dance," haven't painted, haven't uploaded my vacation photos and finished putting together the online album.

I don't know where my motivation has gone. Maybe it's just a seasonal thing, left over from my teaching days when I had summers off. I haven't watched any movies either; I have three at home from Netflix that have been sitting there since before my vacation.

If I were asked what I've been doing to fill my time, I honestly couldn't figure out how to answer. It's not as if I'm bored. The time, if anything, seems to rush by. But I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything.

Okay, I did work on a redesign of my web site, and I love the way it came out. But that's not exactly a big accomplishment.

I've got to get myself out of this rut. If I can just figure out what rut I'm in...

Well, I don't really have to figure that out. It doesn't really matter. The fact is, being lazy isn't a new rut for me. I always enjoy life more when I'm busy, but I've never been good at making my life busy. It's always easier for me when I have regular activities, structured events, a tight schedule.

Starting in October I'll be taking class on Tuesday nights. And at some point I'll get back to playing bridge on Wednesday nights. I need to set up a volunteer activity; I put my name in with a few organizations on their web sites, but never heard back. I guess it's up to me to follow up.

Okay, time for a kick in the pants.